Thoughts as of lately

Since august I have had  the wonderful opportunity to work at the West Campus MTC with this awesome girl.  We aren't usually busy down here so we have a lot of time to talk and get to know each other better. One conversation that always seems to come up is about this constant trial that we have. The more people that I have talked to, it seems, have this one thing that is just hard to deal with or struggle with whether it's drinking, smoking, pornography, feelings for the same gender etc. or even something like paying your tithing, praying, or going to church. It seems like there is always that one thing that is so hard for you to overcome. I know I am there. There have been so many times in my life where I felt like I had so many shortcomings. I just wanted to be perfect so I could be happy and have a great life but that just wasn't EVER going to happen. I could never overcome this stupid trial in my life and I was getting so angry and that was keeping me from being happy. It wasn't until I met my husband and started talking to my bishop that I decided I don't have to be perfect to be happy. You don't. The one thing I have learned is that we need to bridal our passions. If you have a problem with pornography don't get around it. Don't get into a situation where it will be there. I know that is hard with things that are on tv and how easy it is to get on the internet but if you distance yourself from it, it will make it a little easier. I know it's not that easy you may have to see a counselor or even just have someone to talk to about it. When I have my trial I have to find something to do, whether it is cleaning the house, doing dishes, going for a run, or playing with my dogs, it will get your thoughts away from what you were originally thinking. Which is so wonderful! How grateful I am for knowing how to control my feelings. Some days if I am really struggling with my trial I will talk to my husband about it. It was the hardest scariest thing but I thought that since he loved me enough to marry me he would help me. If there is anything I have learned within the last two years it s that if I try my hardest to do what's right and live the way I know I am supposed to my Heavenly Father will help me the rest of the way. He will help me overcome my trial. It's not going to be easy by any means, but once you get control over it, I promise you that you will be a lot happier.  

2013 in a nutshell

I can't believe it is already 2014! Last year flew by way too fast. So many things have happened in the past year and I am so grateful they did. Last year we/I.....

 

got two new dogs first max then caz they love to chase each other and play tug of war

 

 

 

quit working at gordman's

 

got Jordan a motorcycle

 

got in my first big wreck

 

got some new nieces and a nephew

 

 

 

remodeled Jordan's grandma's house (still in progress)

 

moved from Spanish fork to Benjamin

 

chopped my hair off

 

got a new truck

 

got called to be an achievement day leader and lead the music in relief society

 

Jordan got called to be in the young men's

 

got all my camo

 

 

 

graduated from hair school

 

got a job as a barber at the MTC

 

Jordan went back to school at UVU

 

made several trips to Richfield to see my family

 

 

 

got a new sewing machine (still haven't used it)

 

got Jordan a new gun for his birthday/anniversary/christmas

 

celebrated our one year anniversary (played COD, went to the hobbit, did sealings at the Mt. Timp Temple and went sledding)

 

 

I can't wait to see what this new year is going to bring us! Bring it on 2014!